Introspective

I am sure that one thing about being an introvert is that you are introspective. Usually, this is a good thing. I am pretty aware of what I need, I figure out personality things I need to fix, and I know what I want because I think about it alot and play all the scenarios out in my head.

Today, I wish that I wasn't introspective. One of the problems with introspectiveness (my own crazy word) is that you think and replay things over and over in your head. They also aren't always the fun happy things, they are usually a mess up you did or someone being mad at you for something ridiculous. I have tons of conversations about whatever I am thinking about in my head and it almost consumes me. Watching tv doesn't even help. Every situation on the tv "somehow" in your brain relates to the event.

Wise or crazy...probably more the later. This trait and I have a love/hate relationship. It would be so nice if there was a way I could literally grab the thoughts out of my head and throw them away. They are not constructive, they are destructive! What am I gaining from replaying things over and over, what am I missing out on?

Goal: use Introspectiveness to gain wisdom, not be crazy!

Mother's Day

I noticed something yesterday on an absolutely beautiful Mother's Day...everyone hangs with their mom's on Mother's Day. I don't know if this is me being an introvert or just having a 5, 3, and 1 year old but I would much rather celebrate Mother's Day by getting a break from my children.

Part of me feels bad about this but a day without bickering, being a waitress, having to eat all my food cold, sounds like a wonderful day to me! I get to do that every other day of the year. Telling your children that this is mommy's day and she gets to pick what she wants to do all day just causes more bickering and complaining than usual. I would just love to sit in silence and have my toenails done! Does anyone else feel this way??

My husband assures me that I will feel different when the girls are older and never around but for the near future, I declare that Mother's Day should be a kid free zone for all moms, and the same for Father's day for that matter.

Happy Mother's Day to all you introverts out there who just want a day to recover :)

I have gas

That is the text I received from my wonderful husband this morning as I waited on the side of the road for him to come and rescue me and 2 of the girls. It made me laugh even though I knew that what he meant was he had gotten a gas tank and filled it so that he could bring me gas.

I found out today that when my truck says that I have 1 mile until empty, it really means it. The best part was that I could see the gas station from where the truck died. We were out of the traffic thankfully so sitting and waiting wasn't too bad...HA!! The whole thing still makes me laugh. When my husband got there, he asked if anyone had stopped to help. I told him no and inside I was really kind of thankful. If I didn't have a phone or friends who could help me out, it might have been a different story but the thought of a stranger pulling up behind me and asking me if I needed help would have totally freaked me out. It's not like I was in a bad area or anything, I would just rather be left alone sometimes.

So, note to self (and to all of you) don't let your gas tank get that low unless you are sure the gas station is less than a mile away!!