Those of you who enjoy being around people may wonder what on earth do people like me do not being around people...well,
1. I have 3 small children...not really used to being alone :)
2. Clean up
3. Organize anything I can get my hands on
4. Gardening
5. (my newest love) Cook
I have had a few people ask me to start to post recipes and to teach some cooking lessons. As one of my confessions, it makes me nervous to teach. The money would be nice but I am not sure how good of a teacher I would be. So for a little while, this introvert is going to share some recipes. I feel like my blog needs a new name because of this so be sure to check out the changes ;)
8/08/2010
5/11/2010
Introspective
I am sure that one thing about being an introvert is that you are introspective. Usually, this is a good thing. I am pretty aware of what I need, I figure out personality things I need to fix, and I know what I want because I think about it alot and play all the scenarios out in my head.
Today, I wish that I wasn't introspective. One of the problems with introspectiveness (my own crazy word) is that you think and replay things over and over in your head. They also aren't always the fun happy things, they are usually a mess up you did or someone being mad at you for something ridiculous. I have tons of conversations about whatever I am thinking about in my head and it almost consumes me. Watching tv doesn't even help. Every situation on the tv "somehow" in your brain relates to the event.
Wise or crazy...probably more the later. This trait and I have a love/hate relationship. It would be so nice if there was a way I could literally grab the thoughts out of my head and throw them away. They are not constructive, they are destructive! What am I gaining from replaying things over and over, what am I missing out on?
Goal: use Introspectiveness to gain wisdom, not be crazy!
Today, I wish that I wasn't introspective. One of the problems with introspectiveness (my own crazy word) is that you think and replay things over and over in your head. They also aren't always the fun happy things, they are usually a mess up you did or someone being mad at you for something ridiculous. I have tons of conversations about whatever I am thinking about in my head and it almost consumes me. Watching tv doesn't even help. Every situation on the tv "somehow" in your brain relates to the event.
Wise or crazy...probably more the later. This trait and I have a love/hate relationship. It would be so nice if there was a way I could literally grab the thoughts out of my head and throw them away. They are not constructive, they are destructive! What am I gaining from replaying things over and over, what am I missing out on?
Goal: use Introspectiveness to gain wisdom, not be crazy!
5/10/2010
Mother's Day
I noticed something yesterday on an absolutely beautiful Mother's Day...everyone hangs with their mom's on Mother's Day. I don't know if this is me being an introvert or just having a 5, 3, and 1 year old but I would much rather celebrate Mother's Day by getting a break from my children.
Part of me feels bad about this but a day without bickering, being a waitress, having to eat all my food cold, sounds like a wonderful day to me! I get to do that every other day of the year. Telling your children that this is mommy's day and she gets to pick what she wants to do all day just causes more bickering and complaining than usual. I would just love to sit in silence and have my toenails done! Does anyone else feel this way??
My husband assures me that I will feel different when the girls are older and never around but for the near future, I declare that Mother's Day should be a kid free zone for all moms, and the same for Father's day for that matter.
Happy Mother's Day to all you introverts out there who just want a day to recover :)
Part of me feels bad about this but a day without bickering, being a waitress, having to eat all my food cold, sounds like a wonderful day to me! I get to do that every other day of the year. Telling your children that this is mommy's day and she gets to pick what she wants to do all day just causes more bickering and complaining than usual. I would just love to sit in silence and have my toenails done! Does anyone else feel this way??
My husband assures me that I will feel different when the girls are older and never around but for the near future, I declare that Mother's Day should be a kid free zone for all moms, and the same for Father's day for that matter.
Happy Mother's Day to all you introverts out there who just want a day to recover :)
5/05/2010
I have gas
That is the text I received from my wonderful husband this morning as I waited on the side of the road for him to come and rescue me and 2 of the girls. It made me laugh even though I knew that what he meant was he had gotten a gas tank and filled it so that he could bring me gas.
I found out today that when my truck says that I have 1 mile until empty, it really means it. The best part was that I could see the gas station from where the truck died. We were out of the traffic thankfully so sitting and waiting wasn't too bad...HA!! The whole thing still makes me laugh. When my husband got there, he asked if anyone had stopped to help. I told him no and inside I was really kind of thankful. If I didn't have a phone or friends who could help me out, it might have been a different story but the thought of a stranger pulling up behind me and asking me if I needed help would have totally freaked me out. It's not like I was in a bad area or anything, I would just rather be left alone sometimes.
So, note to self (and to all of you) don't let your gas tank get that low unless you are sure the gas station is less than a mile away!!
I found out today that when my truck says that I have 1 mile until empty, it really means it. The best part was that I could see the gas station from where the truck died. We were out of the traffic thankfully so sitting and waiting wasn't too bad...HA!! The whole thing still makes me laugh. When my husband got there, he asked if anyone had stopped to help. I told him no and inside I was really kind of thankful. If I didn't have a phone or friends who could help me out, it might have been a different story but the thought of a stranger pulling up behind me and asking me if I needed help would have totally freaked me out. It's not like I was in a bad area or anything, I would just rather be left alone sometimes.
So, note to self (and to all of you) don't let your gas tank get that low unless you are sure the gas station is less than a mile away!!
4/18/2010
Technology
I have decided that technology is the introvert's friend. I can send emails, text and look up information on the web instead of a phone call. Some people think that this is less friendly or personal but it offers me an opportunity to be more social than I would have been. I would have been too nervous to call someone to wish them a happy birthday, but now I can send them an ecard or send them a message on facebook. I know more about people from my past now than I would have ever known. Technology is great!
It can also be a bit of a nuisance. Especially phones. People constantly check their phones for new emails or texts, even when they are having a conversation with you. I also hate when I am in line in a grocery store and the person being checked out is on the phone. It is so rude to the clerk! Not to mention part of me doesn't want to be accessible to people at all moments. It is good to leave your phone sometimes and not turn on the computer for a day. I promise the world will not blow up without you knowing about it.
Overall, technology has made my life better, not to mention getting to know people better...Thank you!
It can also be a bit of a nuisance. Especially phones. People constantly check their phones for new emails or texts, even when they are having a conversation with you. I also hate when I am in line in a grocery store and the person being checked out is on the phone. It is so rude to the clerk! Not to mention part of me doesn't want to be accessible to people at all moments. It is good to leave your phone sometimes and not turn on the computer for a day. I promise the world will not blow up without you knowing about it.
Overall, technology has made my life better, not to mention getting to know people better...Thank you!
4/16/2010
Cooking Class
So I have decided that it would be fun to teach people how to cook. Cooking is a passion of mine, well since I had a baby and didn't work full time (5 years ago). I am really excited but also a little nervous. My usual cooking happens during nap time or when I turn on Dora the Explorer so that I can be alone. How will it be teaching someone who will be standing with me the whole time...well, we will see. Our menu will be Chicken Parmigiana that is gluten free. It is super easy but makes a great impression if you want to serve it to guests. I have also thought about teaching Spicy Garlic Lime Chicken. I will post pictures if the class goes well :)
It excites me to think about teaching people who may want to change their eating habits who to cook. So many people are finding they have a food intolerance or need to cut out something out of their diet and they are at a loss of where to start. I have been down this road for 14 years now and spent HOURS reading labels. It makes me feel so good that I can help others with my knowledge. I also kind of hope that someday I could open a "kitchen" where people can come after they find out about needing to make a diet change and get help...some day.
after the class:
well, the food was amazing, my teaching not so much. I am used to just cooking for people when they are here so I did most of the work instead of sharing and teaching...I need more practice, any takers?
It excites me to think about teaching people who may want to change their eating habits who to cook. So many people are finding they have a food intolerance or need to cut out something out of their diet and they are at a loss of where to start. I have been down this road for 14 years now and spent HOURS reading labels. It makes me feel so good that I can help others with my knowledge. I also kind of hope that someday I could open a "kitchen" where people can come after they find out about needing to make a diet change and get help...some day.
after the class:
well, the food was amazing, my teaching not so much. I am used to just cooking for people when they are here so I did most of the work instead of sharing and teaching...I need more practice, any takers?
10/01/2009
Easy or Trust
So, if you haven't figured out, I have to ramp myself up to be around people. Normally I can function on a day to day basis getting enough alone time to be around people, but sometimes days turn into weeks and I can't seem to get my alone time in a good balance and I start to unravel. This as you can imagine is not a great thing for me or the people I am around. My husband starts to feel me being crazy and pulling away from him to get that space, not good since he is an extrovert and wants to be with me. My girls sense it, kids you know, they sense things :). They all start unraveling which means they start saying things like, I just want to be with you, I don't want to go play with other kids today, can't we just hang out, I don't likey my sister, can't we just leave her at school! It breaks my heart but I know that if I give in to every request that I will never get back to a healthy place. I need time *time* to process and rest my always running brain.
Here is where the title fits in...I often think of how "Easy" it would be to stay at home daily just doing enough to function in life. Stick to my routines, take kids to school, watch Sesame Street, feed everyone. What a great time. No commitments, no deadlines, less stress. Or "Trust". Commit to using my gifts to help others and to further God's kingdom. Somehow, trust gives purpose, hard and stressful at times, yes, but worth it? I am up at 3 in the morning with my brain running crazy about a huge project to get done and on top of that, 3 little girls who are going to need and demand my best in the morning and through out the whole day. Do I tell others and God to not expect anything out of me because I don't like stress or the effects of sleepless nights or do I trust. Trust that sleep will be restored, alone time will come, and the purpose of my serving will be glorifying.
I hear you, BALANCE! Trying, I promise! But for all of you in one of those weeks or months that never seems to stop and attention pulls you from one thing to the next...Trust seems to be the better and more adventurous choice. Rest when possible and love hard. Communication with the ones closest to you is always helpful too!
Here is where the title fits in...I often think of how "Easy" it would be to stay at home daily just doing enough to function in life. Stick to my routines, take kids to school, watch Sesame Street, feed everyone. What a great time. No commitments, no deadlines, less stress. Or "Trust". Commit to using my gifts to help others and to further God's kingdom. Somehow, trust gives purpose, hard and stressful at times, yes, but worth it? I am up at 3 in the morning with my brain running crazy about a huge project to get done and on top of that, 3 little girls who are going to need and demand my best in the morning and through out the whole day. Do I tell others and God to not expect anything out of me because I don't like stress or the effects of sleepless nights or do I trust. Trust that sleep will be restored, alone time will come, and the purpose of my serving will be glorifying.
I hear you, BALANCE! Trying, I promise! But for all of you in one of those weeks or months that never seems to stop and attention pulls you from one thing to the next...Trust seems to be the better and more adventurous choice. Rest when possible and love hard. Communication with the ones closest to you is always helpful too!
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