Easy or Trust

So, if you haven't figured out, I have to ramp myself up to be around people. Normally I can function on a day to day basis getting enough alone time to be around people, but sometimes days turn into weeks and I can't seem to get my alone time in a good balance and I start to unravel. This as you can imagine is not a great thing for me or the people I am around. My husband starts to feel me being crazy and pulling away from him to get that space, not good since he is an extrovert and wants to be with me. My girls sense it, kids you know, they sense things :). They all start unraveling which means they start saying things like, I just want to be with you, I don't want to go play with other kids today, can't we just hang out, I don't likey my sister, can't we just leave her at school! It breaks my heart but I know that if I give in to every request that I will never get back to a healthy place. I need time *time* to process and rest my always running brain.

Here is where the title fits in...I often think of how "Easy" it would be to stay at home daily just doing enough to function in life. Stick to my routines, take kids to school, watch Sesame Street, feed everyone. What a great time. No commitments, no deadlines, less stress. Or "Trust". Commit to using my gifts to help others and to further God's kingdom. Somehow, trust gives purpose, hard and stressful at times, yes, but worth it? I am up at 3 in the morning with my brain running crazy about a huge project to get done and on top of that, 3 little girls who are going to need and demand my best in the morning and through out the whole day. Do I tell others and God to not expect anything out of me because I don't like stress or the effects of sleepless nights or do I trust. Trust that sleep will be restored, alone time will come, and the purpose of my serving will be glorifying.

I hear you, BALANCE! Trying, I promise! But for all of you in one of those weeks or months that never seems to stop and attention pulls you from one thing to the next...Trust seems to be the better and more adventurous choice. Rest when possible and love hard. Communication with the ones closest to you is always helpful too!